好希望可以在睡觉的时候平静的死去。。 好累好累。。活在世界上到底有什麽意义?

朋友
没有自信,连朋友有几个也分不出。 到底是自己当方面的想法,还是对方也是同样的想法。 一直觉得自己很寂寞,可是就是走不出去,好像快窒息了。 一直想作个好朋友的角色,不知道是否对或错。 总觉得自己的存在不重要,带给大家困扰。

Positive thinking?
haiz. exam cmi. another exam on Friday. how ppl get confidence and motivation? I seriously have 0 or negative for both... 拿不出自信和找不到推动力。。。 像是掉下了无底洞,掉入越深越看不到出口。。 现在的我跟没有灵魂一样的生活着。

can I survive till the end?
feels like dying... who can save me from these negative thoughts? who can recharge me with positive energy at the end of the day? will I be able to survive on my own? will I give up halfway? will I get to see more sun rises? family? friends? strangers? who can I rely on? where can I find a place to recharge? what am I to do? why am I born this way? when will I grow up? how will all these qns be solved? 做人好辛苦 当好人,当坏人,好难 当自己更加不可能。。。

有时候好想放弃 就死了算了 一了白了 做人要怎样才会开心。。 装作一副开心的样子,心里却是空虚的。。 我的守护天使在哪? 我的另一半在哪? 快来救救我!