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EMOOOOO!!!
 EMO!!! EMO!!! EMO!!!.................
Attachment is over but School starting...
Finally today last day of attachment on 30/10/09.Super tired, stock taking the whole morning from 7.30am-12.30pm really sian diao... Although attachment end, the friendship with them will nv end haha Not going for the Halloween event~ Going where neh? nothing to type liao le... haha whee dl-ed new songs =) TIRED!!! Last day =x
come home bath eat maple abit den want sleep le =_+ diu 10% gone from tangtang haiz...den sleep at 8+ wake up now den now go sleep again haha den father bought the moove badge for charity, the money will be given. got the ROCK badge but wanted the COOL badge haha Whee can go on Saturday to Halloween PARTY AT ESCAPE!!!~ also first time go celebrate halloween HAHAH Last 2 days le =/
today eat dinner alone again~order spicy fried fish soup from CP Kopitiam, hmm can say still edible lol not so nice but still ok =x Nub maple dl the patch le den want go in keep dc and dc and dc de zzzzzzzz Qi Si Ren La!!!!!!!!!!!  Whee so happy!!! =Dthe 8 da jie jie bought a new slingbag for me xD Bought emicake de chocolate eclair and cookies from bengawansolo for them~ dont know why feel so tired again... Just feel like sleeping when come home haiz... Last 3 days le =/ Go work seems more fun HAHA anyway =) cheer up erzi de 2 BAKA!! Rls may have happy & sad moments but going through all these obstrucles will help to bond and learn to give in once in a while =) Just crapping no hard feelings =x
feel sick....
tangtang lvl33 le =) 17 more lvls to 50 hahaDont know i can train until 50 mah =x headache~ school starting... 3 hours break in btw can do semo? work ending=x should i find part time job xD so can have own pocket money to go out wif friends =/ Although things happen, tends to forgive n forget the next day. No point remembering it =) 1 week of attachment left le =x
Last week of attachment =/Still need write 1500 words report -_- Dont know the supervisor keep my book where lol hopefully monday go back can get back... tired~tired~ sian~sian~ lazy~lazy~ if one day i if one day i am gone,where will i be? if one day i if one day i am gone,will i be forgotten? 24/10 outing~
Came back from Suntec eat Aston~     Mine~  Yp Mama's Dou papa's  Zhu's DrinksDen go Suntec arcade win dao 2 soft toys LOL~  Also took neo-print too xD~  Den go Paradiz center or parklane for dinner n gaming...SUCKS the dinner and lan was bad bad bad.... PLAIN CHICKEN RICE $1 -.- SELL DONT KNOW WAT RICE SOMEMORE NO NICE...   And the lan shop is kns lor... keep dc, com spoil, server hang, the person attitude also, totally rubbish shop!!!!I.R.C LAN SHOP AT PARKLANE/PARADIZ CENTER is LOUSY today dinner alone haiz`
    feeling so sian n no mood ~_~ hope tml would be better =/ Royce chocolate and dont know semo chocolate wif black sesame filling~
     tired ><
Hahaha wanted to sleep early but =x didn't lolFishing~ free cash fishing rod. bought the cash bait kns de... dont buy F5 7and a half day left =x <3 This Song~
分生-张惠妹 =) like the lyrics~Tsunaida te ni Kiss wo-Sanae Kobayashi =) like the piano tune~ 傻瓜
觉得自己很傻。。。 doing so much things haha yet feel empty hahamaybe others might think i am stupid also but i just dont mind haha maybe brain damage bah or siao le =x dont really know... feel so complicated haiz. life is short but it is filled wif laughter and tears, good and bad times... Friends or foes Family and friends, maybe it is fate maybe it is destiny, hate or love? there will be bound to be both happy & unhappy moments together. doing good deed will have a better life next time? doing bad deed will have retribution? Does this mean those ppl living in poo countries wif no food have done bad deeds? Ppl living in fear of natural disasters? Killed by ppl? This world is so unfair. Just like religion? if there is really god den how come all of this is happening? if there can hear wat we are praying den why cant they help? if this is meant to happen den why bother giving hope? Dreams and hope? Will it really happen if you work towards it? do dreams come true? is there really happy ending or only in fairy tale? if life is filled wif happiness why there are fairytales? WHEE!!!
Yesterday finally went to bbq with them =D and best of all ton~ lolHad lunch at CP, Jia Xiang Mian~ love the fried wantons~ curry mee not bad =) but they play until so siao =_= the small bottle taste nice haha red wine so er xin =x the wasabi nugget no nice =x <3 the satay <3 the fishball <3 the hotdog <3 the normal nugget <3 the cheese sausage no group foto =x tired but FUN~ F5 cant wait
Cant wait for next morning!!!! =)Hmm wanna go out early and have fun one full day F5 Meeting TH for lunch den dont know do wat le =/ Maybe go there early? haiz... so ******
cant stand it anymore la! zzzzzz Just now want cook cup noodle, den my sister that one hers. So fked up zzz cup noodle also want label hers den give u la... nobody to talk to. really sucks can only come here post and say out... While eating the noodle spicy seafod de... tears drop =x dont know why i easily shed tears... feel that friends and attachment staffs also better... treat me so gd =) sometimes just dont want talk to them.. only can remain in own room and emo.. listen music play laptop..REALLYSUCKSMYLIFEISDAMNFKEDUP!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yesterday Today....
Yesterday, another intern bought chocolates from Royce =x Ok la not bad. Taste the same to me haha... dont know how describe have a special taste maybe its because it is pure chocolate.Today lunch was at Hougang Mall-Iciban to have a lunch gathering since tml his last day. Haha eat very full, now still feel full =x Bought own dinner back, fried bee hoon. Nobody at home ~_~ Cant wait for Sat so i can get some fresh air... Saw a nice n elegant keychain at Hougang Mall in the afternoon, so after work go there see but dont have the colour i want to buy for my cousin... Maybe will upload how the chocolate look like.. Eat my bee hoon le~ DEEPAVALI on 17 Oct
lol yesterday play laptop halfway sleep =x den wake up at 4.50am =_=F5 4 more days cant wait =) bbq food~ Time is passing so slow and the timetable sucks lah.... So many hours break in between de... whee lydt sat no need work halfday lol deepavali~ =_= sucky timetable...
Whee have food to eat again haha
     HAHAHA first time eat this dont know like goreng pisang but this is bread with banana inside Insomia
Cant sleep AHHHHHHHHHCant wait for BBQ T_T if only tml wake up is 17Oct just work halfday =/ Stock taking isn't fun... when will it be over? i complain i need do stock take in the end kena say... tell u study hard dont want. get this kind of results so have to do more work. haiz.. really sian of studying =/ although nv study much at least manage to pass all the modules but not good enuff to go university haiz... More sian is ppl keep saying lose weight so NS wont be hard or xin ku... If can lose weight or control i wont be this size liao... if losing weight is as easy as abc den ppl wont take slimming pills or even die because of excessive intake of pills or some illness forget the name like eat le will make ownself vomit out... In this world nth is fair, doing good deeds makes life happier? Doing bad deeds makes life miserable? Money is everything in this world... Power is also... If ppl say they dont need money its a lie... One example would be those charity organizations? If money izzit everything, why they keep tell us donate money... All is just lie, the whole world is just a lie... Even believing have the word lie in it? How are we suppose to believe believe? haha Just like smoking is bad for health? den why those fucking ppl in the world still keep producing it and keep selling it to ppl all over the world? They are contradicting themselves... $_$ money is everything haha Crapping in the middle of the night... 6 more days!!! Hope this 5 days will end fast haha!!! NICE SONG FROM ANIME D-GRAY MAN <3
romaji: Soshite bouya wa nemuri ni tsuita ikizuku hai no naka no honoo hitotsu, futatsu to ukabu fukurami itoshii yokogao daichi ni taruru ikusen no yume, yume Gin no hitomi no yuragu yoru ni umare ochita kagayaku omae ikuoku no toshitsuki ga ikutsu inori wo tsuchi e kaesshitemo Watashi wa inori tsuzukeru douka konoko ni ai wo tsunaida te ni kisu wo Soshite bouya wa nemuri ni tsuita ikizuku hai no naka no honoo hitotsu, futatsu to ukabu fukurami itoshii yokogao daichi ni taruru ikusen no yume, yume Gin no hitomi no yuragu yoru ni umare ochita kagayaku omae ikuoku no toshitsuki ga ikutsu inori wo tsuchi e kaesshitemo Watashi wa inori tsuzukeru douka konoko ni ai wo tsunaida te ni kisu wo Watashi wa inori tsuzukeru douka konoko ni ai wo tsunaida te ni kisu wo English: So the little infant fell into a deep sleep. Among the grey ashes in the flames shining...First one,then two ... Surfaces numerous of your faces A thousand dreams trickle back to the earth On the night when the silver eyes were trembling , the shining you was born Across millions of years,the prayers have already returned back to the earth I will still continue to pray Please bestow upon this child your love Upon our joined hands, leave a gentle kiss So the little infant fell into a deep sleep. Among the grey ashes in the flames shining...First one,then two ... Surfaces numerous of your faces A thousand dreams trickle back to the earth On the night when the silver eyes were trembling , the shining you was born Across millions of years,the prayers have already returned back to the earth I will still continue to pray Please bestow upon this child your love Upon our joined hands, leave a gentle kiss I will still continue to pray Please bestow upon this child your love Upon our joined hands, leave a gentle kiss wondering...
Every nite cant sleep haha... Think about all sorts of things.Friends? How many friends do i really have? How many best friends do i have? How many best buddy do i have who i can talk to? How many group of friends do i have to go out wif? Really dont know how many... Primary and Secondary school friends no contact wif them... only pictures wif them wouldbe class photos LOL Poly class friend 5/6 they have their own clique of friends... and we nv went out for food or just hang out b4 only for projects. For poly attachment friends, went out afew times and rejected a few times. Life? Going home everyday after school. unless project for poly. or go out wif poly attachment friends or maple outing. Stay home mapling, going out with family members. No sports activity. Occasions like friends birthday. My life seems dull n boring. See ppl blogs and facebook wif photos wif friends and gatherings, meeting wif primary school or secondary or poly or working. Attending friends wedding, going out wif their usual clique of friends. Eating and going out have fun while i am mostly staying at home. Even though friends invite sometimes hoping to go out but still reject haha Lazy to ask parents if i can go out. really sucks haha... really tired... really... dont know when can go out after zhu's bbq =/ Playing maple can talk to ppl, the only place left? Having a maple family, ihae someone to talk to, someone who i think care for me? Receiving mega, megaing back, training together, chatting on msn? just these simple things i feel warmth. can just type and anyhow comment joke n suan ppl. but now everybody seems busy wif their own stuff haha... so now sometimes just dont feel like online =x remain offline is better rather den online and nobody to talk to. Primary school something happened which i wont forget. tat is bullied by someone called Clara lock mei jing if not wrong... Primary 1 keep bully by her, anyhow scribble my book and stuff... one day teacher saw my book wif the scribbling and asked wat happen... Another incident is i was stupid want to know the answer for the wrong ans for my paper... den she say let me see but i must let her see my correct ans which she get wrong... i agree and she go change her answer and go tell teacher she got correct... How i wish i could go back in time... Feel so outcast... feel i am different from other ppl... maybe i have closed myself from the outside world? maybe i rather be quiet and alone so i wont be noticed? first time i write should a bloody long post? 3 more weeks of attachment... dontknow need stock take until when... cant wait for saturday 17 oct... wanna know the feeling of being drunk =x does it really make ppl forget everything and go crazy haha Went Tampines
 Went to Tampines Mall/T One Haha was surprized tat T One is less crowded den Tampines Mall =x Had dinner at Korean BBQ Chicken. Had the student meal cost $7.90 with a meal n drink n one free refill of the drink.
分生
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Feel very very tired =/ extremely tired today.Have fun to all who are going JB tml =D tml sat off, can sleep until late late =) 3 more weeks to go!! will miss the food and ppl there LOL School Canteen food really sucks big time and more expensve den hawker centres Stock taking is tiring xD haiz must look one by one... somemore so dusty n sweat alot so smelly =x But after tml 3 weeks left le =/ going back to school left for 4 more months den NS le T_T Time flies from baby-child-primary-secondary-poly-NS haiz hope time will stop HAHA!! alot ppl say lose weigh so no need go extra 3months haha but laxy to exercise =/ and NAPFA fail also lol Haha get first pay seems grand? need treat and give parents money xD hmm.. Last day of attachment also need to get somethings for collegues in the office xD Dont know wat to buy have 9 of them =x whee~
Finally get my allowance $470.55 lmao xDCome back home elder sister jiu kpkb lmao den she go back room eat halfway say later den eat. Ass lah! T_T stock taking of the goods.... damn dirty lor =/ i also want go eat zichar T_T but surely cannot de haiz =/ F5 cant wait for bbq!!! Can go out and have fun and be alone LOL can sit under the sky under the clouds under the moon =) dont know why? o.O
the staffs in the company like keep ask about whether i got go out wif friend...lolden ask me go out more... Dont always stay at home. but i dont take initiative ask ppl =x yet ppl ask but i reject haha confused and tired xD Just wanna get my pay and get some of the things tat i want? maybe not geting headphone le haha but treat family n cousin still must haha!! because cousin keep treat den now first time get pay must treat back her and my family. haha f3 know some ppl also waiting for me to treat LOL Maybe 17Oct will have a chance who knows xD LOL
MIRACLE HAPPENED!!! phone memory card hao le!!!!!!!!!!!LOL a BLESSING IN DISGUSE.... Boom my maple shield but memory card hao le WHEE!!!! haha worth it bah save money on repairs hahahahahha speak more?
Going home the security chatted wif me lol...Asked me to speak more n make more friend haha Hmmm..... but dont know why when talking face to face dont have tat courage to open mouth lol but when typing will just type it out haha... JYJY make a difference haha   LOL drink red wine so "ku" taste like beer =x =/
 Waiting for lunch. 4 weeks left before attachment end 2 week left before zhu's birthday bbq 1 week left dont know will get allowance Hope everything will go smoothly =)
alone?
suddenly recall this morning one staff ask me. (in chinese)you got go out celebrate with friends? no. so guai ar? no go out. never contact yr secondary sch frens? never contact le. haha now thinking, haha no much ppl to go out wif =x because i never really take initiative to ask or talk to ppl much. Somehow, i have live through my 19 years mostly staying at home or go out wif family more often haha Maybe i am introvet, or maybe grow up lydt or maybe they are just excuses bah. yesterday friday, call centre friends asked to meet for dinner at chomp chomp in the evening to celebrate a friend's birthday. but i lied tat i next day still need work =x. have the tot of going to have nice food but lazy to ask parents if i can go... so rather just make up some excuse say dont want go haha hope someday things will be less "protective" and have freedom lol tired le go sleep le nitez... sweet dreams all... waiting for zhu bbq to come =) so can go out and have fun hope so =x zzzz
Fked up phone, first battery and memory card...Now the damnn memory card cant be read... dont know wat happen to it. haiz Only source of listening to music for work no more le.... Cant take much photo le... emo... =( haiz...
Need wait until next week around 7 Oct maybe will get paid... if nv get paid need call my teacher le f3whee cant wait to get my so called first pay haha!!! 1st: Treat family n cousin to eat =D 2nd: Dont know =/. Buy food? 3rd: Dont know =/. Buy clothes? 4th: Maybe buy a headphone. xD 5th: Dont know =/ Tml is mooncake festival le~ dont know will go auntie hse to celebrate or stay at home~ Rawr 3 days no see dao sunset =/ NUB WEATHER!!! |