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wondering...
Every nite cant sleep haha... Think about all sorts of things.Friends? How many friends do i really have? How many best friends do i have? How many best buddy do i have who i can talk to? How many group of friends do i have to go out wif? Really dont know how many... Primary and Secondary school friends no contact wif them... only pictures wif them wouldbe class photos LOL Poly class friend 5/6 they have their own clique of friends... and we nv went out for food or just hang out b4 only for projects. For poly attachment friends, went out afew times and rejected a few times. Life? Going home everyday after school. unless project for poly. or go out wif poly attachment friends or maple outing. Stay home mapling, going out with family members. No sports activity. Occasions like friends birthday. My life seems dull n boring. See ppl blogs and facebook wif photos wif friends and gatherings, meeting wif primary school or secondary or poly or working. Attending friends wedding, going out wif their usual clique of friends. Eating and going out have fun while i am mostly staying at home. Even though friends invite sometimes hoping to go out but still reject haha Lazy to ask parents if i can go out. really sucks haha... really tired... really... dont know when can go out after zhu's bbq =/ Playing maple can talk to ppl, the only place left? Having a maple family, ihae someone to talk to, someone who i think care for me? Receiving mega, megaing back, training together, chatting on msn? just these simple things i feel warmth. can just type and anyhow comment joke n suan ppl. but now everybody seems busy wif their own stuff haha... so now sometimes just dont feel like online =x remain offline is better rather den online and nobody to talk to. Primary school something happened which i wont forget. tat is bullied by someone called Clara lock mei jing if not wrong... Primary 1 keep bully by her, anyhow scribble my book and stuff... one day teacher saw my book wif the scribbling and asked wat happen... Another incident is i was stupid want to know the answer for the wrong ans for my paper... den she say let me see but i must let her see my correct ans which she get wrong... i agree and she go change her answer and go tell teacher she got correct... How i wish i could go back in time... Feel so outcast... feel i am different from other ppl... maybe i have closed myself from the outside world? maybe i rather be quiet and alone so i wont be noticed? first time i write should a bloody long post? 3 more weeks of attachment... dontknow need stock take until when... cant wait for saturday 17 oct... wanna know the feeling of being drunk =x does it really make ppl forget everything and go crazy haha |